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A woman who was subjected to satanic ritual abuse which involved her parents forcing her to get into a coffin with her sister’s dead body at age nine has spoken out about her harrowing experiences.

Mary Knight, 66, a social worker and film maker from Bellingham, Washington, released a documentary detailing the horrific sexual and physical abuse that she faced from a young age, which included her own parents prostituting her and forcing her to star in child pornography.

Mary claimed she was raped by her grandfather and sexually assaulted by her mother for many years; and while her father didn’t physically touch her, she said he would ‘coach others’ and ‘take pictures’ of them participating in the sexual acts.

‘I had an extremely abusive childhood, I was prostituted as a child, my parents produced child pornography and used me in it,’ she said in the documentary, which first came out in 2017 but was recently republished with added scenes on Real Women, Real Stories‘ YouTube page by executive producer and hedge fund manager Matan Uziel. 

She explained that she was also subjected to satanic ritual abuse, which involves the use of ‘satanism,’ ‘cannabalism,’ or ‘human sacrifices’ to ‘frighten young victims,’ using ‘fear as the controlling tactic,’ OJP.gov reported.

A woman who was subjected to satanic ritual abuse which involved her parents forcing her to get into a coffin with her sister’s dead body at age nine has spoken out about her experiences

Mary Knight (seen as a child), a social worker and film maker Washington, released a documentary detailing the horrific sexual and physical abuse that she faced from a young age

Mary Knight (seen as a child), a social worker and film maker Washington, released a documentary detailing the horrific sexual and physical abuse that she faced from a young age

She claimed her parents prostituted her, forced her to star in child pornography, sexually assaulted her, and subjected her to satanic ritual abuse. She is seen as a child with her mom

She claimed her parents prostituted her, forced her to star in child pornography, sexually assaulted her, and subjected her to satanic ritual abuse. She is seen as a child with her mom 

She said her dad killed the family’s pet dog in front of her and her older sister, Ruth, when she was just a toddler – in an attempt to scare them into silence.

Mary claimed she was raped by her grandfather (pictured). She also said her grandfather would have sex with her mother while her dad was at work

Mary claimed she was raped by her grandfather (pictured). She also said her grandfather would have sex with her mother while her dad was at work

‘He made me and my sister watch while he killed our dog with a knife,’ she recalled. ‘And he said, “If you tell about the abuse the same thing will happen to you.” 

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Mary also claimed that after Ruth died at age 11 from a brain tumor, her parents cut open her body while she watched. Mary, who was nine at the time, said they then made her to get inside the coffin with her sister’s corpse and put on her ‘panties.’

‘I wasn’t repulsed by her body, I petted it,’ she said in a video-taped hypnosis session with her therapist, which was shared in the documentary. ‘I put my fingers on her hair.’

She added later on in the doc, ‘There’s never a way for someone who’s not evil to explain an evil person’s mind.’ 

She said she was sexually assaulted by her mother for years; and while her father didn't touch her, she said he would 'coach others' and 'take pictures.' Her parents are pictured

She said she was sexually assaulted by her mother for years; and while her father didn’t touch her, she said he would ‘coach others’ and ‘take pictures.’ Her parents are pictured

She said her dad killed the family's pet dog in front of her and her older sister, Ruth, when she was just a toddler - in an attempt to scare them into silence. Mary is seen as a kid with her dad

She said her dad killed the family’s pet dog in front of her and her older sister, Ruth, when she was just a toddler – in an attempt to scare them into silence. Mary is seen as a kid with her dad

Mary also claimed that after Ruth died at age 11 from a brain tumor, her parents cut open her body while she watched. She is seen with her sister

Mary also claimed that after Ruth died at age 11 from a brain tumor, her parents cut open her body while she watched. She is seen with her sister

Mary, who was nine at the time, said they then made her to get inside the coffin with her sister's corpse and put on her 'panties.' She is seen with her sister before her death

Mary, who was nine at the time, said they then made her to get inside the coffin with her sister’s corpse and put on her ‘panties.’ She is seen with her sister before her death

In an emotional scene of the documentary, Mary went to visit her mother’s grave in an attempt to confront her horrendous past, and she broke down in tears as she opened up about some of the other terrible things her mom had done to her.

‘How can you be a mother to me when I can remember having oral sex with you? How can that be a mother? How can any mother do the things you did?’ she tearfully yelled at her mother’s tombstone.

‘I know you were abused as a child but that’s not an excuse. I was abused as a child and I never abused a child.’

Mary recalled times when her mother and grandfather would go into her bedroom to have sex while her dad was at work. 

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‘You’d sit me down at the dining room table with some chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream so I wouldn’t bother you, but I heard you in there,’ she continued to say to her mom’s grave.

‘And then, when your dad… when he brought me in, you weren’t protective of me, you were jealous of me.’

Mary went to visit her mother's grave in an attempt to confront her horrendous past, and she broke down in tears as she opened up about some more terrible things her mom did to her

Mary went to visit her mother’s grave in an attempt to confront her horrendous past, and she broke down in tears as she opened up about some more terrible things her mom did to her

'How can you be a mother to me when I can remember having oral sex with you? How can any mother do the things you did?' she tearfully yelled at her mother's tombstone

'How can you be a mother to me when I can remember having oral sex with you? How can any mother do the things you did?' she tearfully yelled at her mother's tombstone

‘How can you be a mother to me when I can remember having oral sex with you? How can any mother do the things you did?’ she tearfully yelled at her mother’s tombstone

Mary (seen as a kid) blocked out all memories of the mutilation up until her 30s, when it all came flooding back to her after she reconnected with an estranged aunt

Mary (seen as a kid) blocked out all memories of the mutilation up until her 30s, when it all came flooding back to her after she reconnected with an estranged aunt

Mary blocked out all memories of the mutilation up until her 30s, when it all came flooding back to her after she reconnected with an estranged aunt who told her about the abuse.

She then entered into counseling, and doctors used hypnosis to help her remember what had happened to her as a child. Now, she remembers it vividly but for years, she was left wondering, ‘Am I crazy, or did it really happen to me?’ 

In her doc, she interviewed a series of other victims who repressed memories of their abuse until years later, as well as various psychology professionals in an attempt to uncover the truth about her childhood and make sure that what she remembered was what really happened to her.

‘Horrible brutalization is banished into the unconscious by some process that’s beyond ordinary forgetting and remembering,’ one doctor, named Elizabeth Loftus, explained in the doc. 

She also looked into False Memory Syndrome (FMS), which is when a person has ‘memories of a traumatic episode, most commonly childhood sexual abuse, which are objectively false,’ but the person ‘strongly believes’ them to be true, Science Direct stated.

‘These pseudomemories usually arise in the context of adult psychotherapy and are often quite vivid and emotionally charged,’ the organization added. 

After setting out on a 'journey' to see if her memories were real, Mary (pictured as a child) said she believes that they are, explaining, 'It's just what I know to be true in my deepest self'

After setting out on a ‘journey’ to see if her memories were real, Mary (pictured as a child) said she believes that they are, explaining, ‘It’s just what I know to be true in my deepest self’

Now, she wants people to know that she has a 'good life' and is 'really happy.' As for how she healed, she said therapy, exercise, medication, spirituality, and prayer were things that helped

Now, she wants people to know that she has a ‘good life’ and is ‘really happy.’ As for how she healed, she said therapy, exercise, medication, spirituality, and prayer were things that helped 

After setting out on a ‘journey’ to see if her memories were real, Mary said she believed with her ‘deepest self’ that they are, especially after she spoke to five different relatives privately who had similar recollections of the abuse – they were not comfortable speaking in the documentary.

She has now devoted her life to helping other survivors, and has worked 23 years as a social worker. She is currently working on a memoir, entitled Becoming Mrs. Brown, which is set to come out later this year

She has now devoted her life to helping other survivors, and has worked 23 years as a social worker. She is currently working on a memoir, entitled Becoming Mrs. Brown, which is set to come out later this year

‘It’s just what I know to be true in my deepest self,’ she explained. ‘Part of the abuse is [being convinced] that your thoughts, your feelings, and your perceptions are not enough.’

While speaking out about her documentary in a Q&A with fans through Real Women, Real Stories, Mary said it felt like some of the people she talked to and the stuff she read about False Memory Syndrome was ‘diminishing the seriousness of child abuse.’

Now, she wants people to know that she has a ‘good life’ and is ‘really happy.’ As for how she healed, she said psychotherapy, healthy eating, exercise, medication, spirituality, meditation and prayer, reading, group support, and creativity were some of the things that helped her.

‘That’s not to say that there aren’t times that I’m triggered or my life isn’t effected by my childhood,’ she added in the Q&A. 

She has now devoted her life to helping other survivors, and has worked 23 years as a social worker. She is currently working on a memoir, entitled Becoming Mrs. Brown, which is set to come out later this year, as well as another documentary.

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